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Feeling as solid as a big rock...
Been told to be empty as a shell...
Dunno whether to be in shock,
times like this make me wanna yell...

Times are confusing and dark.
Whether its me or her...
I simply don't know...

Used to have darkness as shelter,
always wanted time to freeze...
now afraid that at day ill falter...
shaking, what can i do?....please...

Times are confusing and dark.
Whether its me or her...
I hope everything turns out...

I used to feel a lot of it....
been told to let it go.....
remember we're in this together...
i hope this you will always know...

Times are confusing and dark.
Maybe its only me...
Maybe i've only done wrong...

Please dont ask me to forget....
To forget that gorgeous brunette...
Her gorgeous smile and eyes...
Greatness higher than the skies...

Times are confusing and dark.
Maybe its her...
But my forgiveness is always hers...

At the end... ill feel the same...
Dont care if the road is bad for me..
Still loving her, ill endure the pain.
Hope has always been all that i need...

Times are confusing and dark.
Will never forget these times im losing...
I love you, and in my heart you left your mark.....

-by emile

John's deal with life....

One day, a apparently normal one, John woke up. He carried on with his day normally, then eventually the normality went down the drain. He met an apparently normal girl, with a normal life and a normal everything. This sentence remained true for about 36 seconds from the first time John talked to her. John noticed this girl wasnt normal, for the first time in his life, John saw how this girl had a purpose, maybe bigger than himself and he felt as if he had to help her do it and protect her until she did it. Little did he know, that this girl didnt know how important she was, in her life, in my life, in everybody's life. When i met her, my life began to make sense, i began to actually "live" my life. Funny, few people actually live their lives, yet they believe they do.

Well John that day made two resolutions, two objectives, the first one was to himself, he promised to protect this girl every single day, embrace her when she needed it, kiss her when she wanted it, and give her advice when she was worried about something among other things. John thought this was necessary for his well being, mostly because this girl was cheering him up without knowing it. As we stated before, she isnt quite aware of how great she is. The second resolution was to make a deal with life. The deal with life was to give her a great and easy life as she deserved. The girl is aware of this deal, what she doesnt know is what John gave up for this deal. What John gave up for this was to have a difficult and terrible life, so that she could live easily and happy. John went up to the world and asked the world for that, and the world accepted with an evil smile on its face.

So, after all of this John became this girls angel, while she was already his. But the world doublecrossed John and broke the deal, and is now giving both John and the girl the difficult lives. But John, having promised to protect her, will help the girl in her suffering. He will always ALWAYS extend his hand to her, no matter how deep the hole, he will throw himself in the hole and help the girl out. John doesnt care if he gets stuck in the hole as long as shes out of it.

John loves you little girl, you have to know that and he will always try and show you how great you are even though you dont know it. :)

Dream Theater - Vacant

Dream Theater - Vacant

Hey you, Hey you
I'm right here
Conscience fading
Can't get through

Oh Lord
Helpless
Confused
Head swayed
Eyes glazed
And mine teared

She's losing control
What can I do
Her vacant eyes
Black holes
Am I losing you?

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